J e S s A’s Blog

Hell yeah.. our JS PROM is coming.. [Feb. 10 this year]

hoho.. and im some kinda.. NERVOUS. i dunno why.. wew..

haha.. but im a lil bit excited. lol. peo d ko pinapakita. :PP

wew. d ko alam cnu magiging first at last dance ko..

nasa isip ko siya.. siya.. at siya.. [awts. dalawa lng pla].

peo ok lng ung isa.. khit d ko xa maging first dance..

isasayaw nia parin ako.. peo ung isa.. oh god.. d ko alam

kung isasayaw bah nia ako.. [i hope sana nga]

yeah. how i wish.. u will be my ROMEO. lol

wew. Seminar is really boring. ughhhhh.. Lalo na kung di ka maxado interested sa topic dbah? peo.. i must listen!!!. eeeeeehhh.. they required us to do research or to make an SIP. whOoo. Oral Defense is on March 5-6, 2009. waaaaaaaa. Nosebleed jud mi ani bah. waha! and thank God. by pair xaaaaaaa! haha. awww. hahayss. Gudluck!!!

Tree

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The reason I’m called tree is because I’m good at painting trees. Overtime I start to use a tree on the right hand corner as a trademark for all my watercolors painting. I have dated 5 gals when I was in Pre-U. There’s one gal who I love a lot but never dare go after her. She doesn’t have a pretty face, doesn’t have a good figure, doesn’t have outstanding charm. She is just a very ordinary gal.

I like her. I really like her. Like her innocent, like her frankness. Like her cuteness, like her intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going after her is because I felt somebody so ordinary like her is not a good match for me. I’m also afraid that after we are together all the good feelings will vanish. I’m also afraid other’s gossips will hurt her. I felt that if she’s my gal, she will be mine ultimately & I don’t have to give up everything just for her. The last reason, made her accompany me for 3 years. She watch me chase after gals, and I have make her heart cry for 3 years.

She wants to be a good actress and I’m a very demanding director. When I kissed my 2nd girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smile & say “Go on!” before running off. The next day, her eyes was swollen like a walnut. I purposely didn’t want to think about what causes her to cry but laugh at her the whole day. When everybody go back home, she was alone crying in the classroom. She didn’t know that I returned from soccer training to get something. I watch her cry for an hour or so.

My 4th girlfriend didn’t like her. There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that based on her character she’s not the type that will start off the quarrel. But I still sided with my girlfriend. I shouted at her and her eyes was filled shocked. I didn’t care about her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend. The next day, she still laugh & joke with me like nothing has ever happened. I know that she’s very hurt but she didn’t know that my heart ache is as bad as hers.

When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked her out. After going out for a day, I told her that I have something to tell her. She told me that coincidentally, she has something to tell me too. I told her about my break up and she told me about her getting together. I know whose the guy. He has been going after her for quite a while. A very cute guy full of energy, lively and interesting. His pursuit for her has been the talk of the school.

I can’t show her my heart ache but could only smile & congratulate her. When I reach home, the heart ache is so strong that I can’t stand it. It’s like a heavy weighted stone on my chest. I couldn’t breath. Wanted to shout but can’t. Tears rolled down & I broke down & cry. How many times have I seen her cry for the man that doesn’t acknowledge her presence too.

During graduation, I read a sms in my hp. It was send 10 days ago when I broke down and cry. I haven’t read it since then. It says “Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn’t ask her to stay”.

Brittney loved basketball
Friends and parties too
And when it came to painting
That’s all she wanted to do
She painted everything she saw
Birds, flowers, the sky
Some days she sat at her window
And painted everything that passed her by
But lately she’d been feeling woozy
Her muscles ached a lot
And her parents got kind of worried
So they took her to the doc

The doctor took a couple of tests
To see if everything was okay
Then the nurse came out with a look of sadness
And this is what she had to say;
“I’m sorry but you’ve got leukemia,”
“You’ve got about 3 months more.”
Then Brittney got up and ran out of the room
And slammed the office door

She ran down the street screaming
And cried her eyes out dry
And stayed up all night
Wondering what it’s like to die
Her parents held her tightly
And said, “We love you,”
“We’ll make your last few months the greatest,”
“We’ll do anything for you.”

So Brittney and her parents moved to Florida
To live by the sea
Because Brittney loved the ocean
And when she dies, that’s where she wanted to be
She spent her days painting
And horseback riding in by the bay
But one day she met this guy
And his name was Jay

They collected seashells together
And talked about all kinds of things
And then one day while walking
He handed her a ring
It said, “I love you,”
Which brought tears to Brittney’s eyes
And when he put it on her finger
She began to cry

“I’ve got leukemia, and about a month more.”
He said,” No matter what, I love you,”
“And no matter what, you are the one I adore.”
So they spent everyday together
And swam in the Atlantic all day
But Brittney was getting weaker
And it was hard for her stay awake

So one day Brittney painted her picture
And gave it to Jay
She said, “I want you to remember me,”
“Even when I leave this place.”
But one day while they were walking
And searching for seashells in the sand
Brittney collapsed and started to lose her breath
And said to Jay, “Please hold my hand.”

“I love you more then anyone,”
“You are my only true love,”
“But now my time is up,”
“And I’ll watch over you from above,”

Then Brittney’s body was lifeless
As she lay in Jay’s arms
And he sat there all day
And kept her safe from harm

I hope this teaches you a lesson.
To tell someone you love them whenever you can.
Because maybe they’ll be gone tomorrow.
And you wont be there to hold their hand.
Because love is everything to everybody.
Without it, the world would be dead.
So always tell someone you love them.
A parent, a lover, a friend.
Send this to everyone you know,
it makes a big difference even though you don’t
think so…
Everyone deserves an “I love you.”
Because there may be
No one for that person to say it back to.

===> if ever you liked that someone, or even loved him or her, please have the courage to say it, for who knows
if just that sentence would be too late.

A boy walked into a CD store and saw a girl behind the counter.

She smiled and he thought it was the most beautiful smile he has ever seen before and wanted to kiss her right there.

He said “Uh… Yeah… Umm… I would like to buy a CD.” He picked one out and gave her money for it.

“Would you like me to wrap it for you?” she asked, smiling her cute smile again.

He nodded and she went to the back.

She came back with the wrapped CD and gave it to him. He took it and walked out of the store. He went home and from then on, he went to that store everyday and bought a CD, and she wrapped it for him. He took the CD home and put it in his closet. He was still too shy to ask her out and he really wanted to but he couldn’t. His mother found out about this and told him to just ask her.

So the next day, he took all his courage and went to the store. He bought a CD like he did everyday and once again she went to the back of the store and came back with it wrapped. He took it and when she wasn’t looking, he left his phone number on the desk and ran out…

!!!RRRRRING!!!

The mother picked up the phone and said, “Hello?”

It was the girl!!! She asked for the boy and the mother started to cry and said, “You don’t know? He passed away yesterday…

” The line was quiet except for the cries of the boy’s mother. Later in the day. The mother went into the boy’s room because she wanted to remember him. She thought she would start by looking at his clothes. So she opened the closet. She was face to face with piles and piles and piles of unopened CDs. She was surprised to find all those CDs and she picked one up and sat down on the bed and she started to open one.

Inside, there was a CD and as she took it out of the wrapper, out fell a piece of paper. The mother picked it up and started to read it.

It said: Hi… I think you are really cute. Do you wanna go out with me? Love, Jacelyn

The mother opened another CD…

Again there was a piece of paper. It said: Hi… I think you are really cute. Do you wanna go out with me? Love, Jacelyn.

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>> nice story..

Once upon a time, there was once a guy who was very much in love with this girl. This romantic guy folded 1,000 pieces of paper cranes as a gift to his girl. Although, at that time he was just a small executive in his company, his future doesn’t seemed too bright, they were very happy together. Until one day, his girl told him she was going to Paris and will never come back. She also told him that she cannot visualize any future for the both of them, so let’s go their own ways there and then… heartbroken, the guy agreed.

When he regained his confidence, he worked hard day and night, slogging his body and mind just to make something out of himself. Finally with all these hard work and with the help of friends, this guy had set up his own company…
“You never fail until you stop trying.” he always told himself. “I must make it in life!”

One rainy day, while this guy was driving, he saw an elderly couple sharing an umbrella in the rain walking to some destination. Even with the umbrella, they were still drenched. It didn’t take him long to realize those were his ex-girlfriend’s parents. With a heart in getting back at them, he drove slowly beside the couple, wanting them to spot him in his luxury sedan. He wanted them to know that he wasn’t the same anymore. He had his own company, car, condo, etc. He had made it in life!

Before the guy can realize, the couple was walking towards a cemetery, and he got out of his car and followed them…and he saw his ex-girlfriend, a photograph of her smiling sweetly as ever at him from her tombstone… and he saw his precious paper cranes in a bottle placed beside her tomb. Her parents saw him. He walked over and asked them why this had happened. They explained, she did not leave for France at all. She was stricken ill with cancer. In her heart, she had believed that he will make it someday, but she did not want her illness to be his obstacle … therefore she had chosen to leave him.

She had wanted her parents to put his paper cranes beside her, because, if the day comes when fate brings him to her again he can take some of those back with him. The guy just wept …the worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them but knowing you can’t have them and will never see them again.

first of all., i would like to thank sa mga Classmates ko especially sa President namin! ROGEL!. hehe. go0d work! toinks. tsaka ke Ma’am A.! tenkyu sa support. tsaka sa food at gift. heheh.

wew. im so enjoyed! woah. sa games! haha. lol. kaso d ako nanalo. give way ko kay seatmate JULIE! haha. peo ok lng. at least, i had fun. tsaka sa newspaper dance. achuchu. kainis. heheh. ok lng din!. waaaaaa. congrats sa seatmates ko. hahah!
sa nakabunot sa akin., wow.. hehe. salamat ng marami kuya.. wenks. d ko alam kaw pla! sus nman. kala ko babae ehh. hehe.. d lng talaga nagparamdam. peo nice gift mo!. pati mama ko. like din niya gift mow. toinks.? hahah. BLUE…
BEST day ko tlaga kahapon..

kasi.. nag enjoy ako..

nagpapic kami ng TRIO* hehe.. tsaka.. lumabas..

pumunta ng mall kasama c girlie, emie, sm tsaka c jeuf at julie..

salamats rin pla kay SM! sa drumstick! hahaha. sa uulitin..

aiun.

la na ako masabi.

basta enjoy maxado..

wwwwwwooohhh!

at tsaka.. yvang! get well soon! tsskk. sayang d ka nakasali..

enjoy pa nman.. wew..

………………. END!

Everyday I try to smile

As if there is no pain clinging inside me

To face people is a struggle

Hate practically made me tumble.

Anger is not my reliever

But it always retrieves

All the anguish of the past

What should I do to make it last?

This is burden

That I will wear forever

I want to take it off

But it stuck on me.

Oh God please help me

I know you’re a great healer

You’re the only one who can destroy

This MASK OF ANGER.

It all started from the deepest portion of my heart

Then spread constantly to all parts of my body

With a dimensional dissection using a periodic function

And within 360 degrees of systematic study

I found out that you, through a structural analysis

Possesses all the summation of the equations of man’s perfect architecture

With your elliptical lips and eyes

You are the first order and the first kind of man.

The first time I laid my eyes on you,

I automatically felt a linear attraction with harmonic motion within myself

You have integrated my mind and proportionally captivated my heart and soul.

Every time you glance at me

I then felt instantaneous and abrupt chemical reactions currently

Circulating to all parts of my body.

Once I hear you voice,

My body temperature drops down below zero degrees

With absolute and normal pressure within atmospheric condition.

And when you smile at me

My heartbeat rises to an accelerated motion without static friction.

You vaporizes my thoughts and symmetrically

Compresses my feelings within a limit of zero to infinity.

There is 0 emptiness in me every time we are together

For you are tangential coordinate of my mind

and the perpendicular bisection of my heart.

And within you I found the perfect

Prototype to match the satisfaction of my being.

I didn’t come seeking for you but God gave you to me,

So when i affirm that “I LOVE YOU”.

I am by myself sure of you.

Now I know that I love you and care for you

This love will never decrease below 100 degrees Celsius

at boiling condition.

And this love was formed not on the basis of any Law of mathematics or Science that governs the universe.

But from my dreams and aspirations to win you.

With you, I should be happy to transverse life in whatever

direction it may take.

And as proof, I will algebraically express

My love for you in this way…

(-.-)

ohh.. wat a feeLing.. wew..

im so tired of this.. and i want end up!

give up! but…

i dont know…

hayzz..

samok oi!